I'll be the first to admit that seeing things in a positive light is one of the hardest challenges I ever decided to take on for myself, because most things in life just look like they suck... I mean, what's fun or good or nice about getting up to an alarm at 6 am when you're exhausted, in pain and it's cold outside? And trust me, I am *not* a positive person by nature. I'm pretty sure I was born bitching about something... probably that the trip was too long.
But making that choice has made a big difference for me. It has reduced my stress levels, made me a more pleasant person to be around, and an unexpected thing... my life goes my way more often. I can't explain it, but that's that way it seems. But most importantly to me, I have found peace for the first time in my life. It's a little on the fragile side, but it's there!
And here's the really crazy thing!
I don't think other people who have known me long term would say they have noticed a difference, because I'm not externally a more positive person. I don't walk around talking about how everything is all sunshine and roses all the time or how life is just perfect if you can just see it that way. Life is still the same fucking cesspool of stupid and crazy that it always was and I expect it always will be.
It doesn't seem to be about suddenly seeing the World through rose colored glasses. It seems to be about just making the effort to see around the mess to the beauty on the other side, even if you don't actually get there.
I mean, sometimes the suckage of life is as plain as the nose on your face, but if you can see the sunrise anyway, maybe it's a little less sucky.