Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Seven Things

I am as insubstantial as the mist on a cold fall morning.

I effect nothing and no one as I glide through the solid world around me.

Nothing touches me either.

I am cold and gray and turn the landscape into vague shadows of things that once were.

I muffle the voices that call to you from the land of light and amplify the lone wolf cry.

I twist and turn, but never move.

And just when you think all is lost, I step aside and let the sun shine through with a radiant glory you have never known before.

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Good Deed

I don't have much in my life, but what little I have is so much more than others that I feel like I have to make the effort to do good in the world where ever I can... this is my current good deed.

On May 28th of this year I will be braiding my rather long hair and cutting off the braids for Locks of Love.

Locks of Love is a public non-profit organization that provides hairpieces to financially disadvantaged children in the United States and Canada under age 21 suffering from long-term medical hair loss from any diagnosis. We meet a unique need for children by using donated hair to create the highest quality hair prosthesis.

Once they are cut off and ready to be mailed, I'll be shaving my head in support of St Baldricks Foundation.

The St. Baldrick's Foundation is a volunteer-driven charity committed to funding the most promising research to find cures for childhood cancers and give survivors long and healthy lives. They committed to funding the best research for kids with cancer and the top pediatric oncologists in the U.S. guide our research priorities. In 2011, St. Baldrick's donors and volunteers made possible more than $21 million in funding for childhood cancer research grants, pushing total research funding to an all time high.

My hair before I shave it all off

My goal is to raise $5000 USD by that date. What I'm asking from you guys is that you share my St Baldricks profile with everyone you know and donate what you can here. Even if it is only a dollar, it will make a difference...

Together we can change the World!


"You make me feel bad that I don't feel better"

This above all else is why I'm terrified to invite someone into my life. I'm just starting to get comfortable with the idea that it's ok to not be ok all the time. Having someone around that I want to be ok for when my pain or depression take over and make it impossible for me to be ok... it's scary.

I wonder if I'll ever find someone who can help me be ok with not being ok with them...

I'm insane, you can say it.