Today was the first day of me knowing I can't keep you around. Of knowing that you are happy. Of being just me in all of my messed up glory, because I don't have to worry that I will chase you off without a word again.
Today I felt anguish. I felt peace. I feel a heart breaking joy that I didn't know I would feel.
Today I was given a gift by a friend, who loves me just enough to know that I needed to hear that they understood me.
Tomorrow, I will put this down... again, and again... until I can leave it. Then I will try again.