Monday, February 6, 2012

I'm Sorry

I don't know what I was thinking, inviting you back into my life. I knew that my feelings for you were still too strong to accept whatever scraps you would toss me if you felt like it. You made it clear a long time ago how you feel about me useless waste not worth the dirt on your shoes. I have tried so hard to keep my distance, to not drag myself into that trap of being someones option when they are a priority for me.

And so here I am

Bruised and aching because I don't have the good sense to leave well enough alone.

I'm sorry I brought you into this.

I'm sorry I'm not good enough.

I'm sorry I'm not strong enough.

I'm sorry I'm not enough.

But please know this, for all of my weakness, failings, and mistakes, there is one person in all the world who wishes you nothing but happiness and love, joy and laughter, and loves your soul no matter how dirty it gets
Maybe some day, for some one, that will be enough

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