Sunday, December 18, 2011


Keep in mind the many beings who are suffering in the same way as you are, and pray that your suffering may absorb theirs and that they may be liberated from all suffering. In this way, illness can teach us compassion. ~Kyabje Dilgo Khyentse Rinpoche

The quote and picture above and the picture passed through my G+ stream this morning and I haven't been able to take my mine off of them since. As a child I was rape by my Mother's Father for almost a decade. I saw this as an ok situation because he left my sister alone. It wasn't until he started going after her that I took steps to force him to stop and to pay for his actions. I was 11.

To this day, the only thing that makes that situation tolerable is the knowledge that she doesn't wake up screaming at night because of the memories.

This is only one example of the things I have experienced in my life. With each of them my only wish has been that "because I am going through this, please don't make anyone else". To date, my wish hasn't been granted, but I still hope.

If I could stop the women of the world from being raped, I would spend the rest of my days being destroyed again and again. If I could keep the worlds children from starving, I would never eat again. If I could keep the worlds old from ending their lives homeless and alone, I would move into a cardboard box and never speak to another living soul.

Why? Because I know how strong I am. I know that there is nothing in this world that can destroy me. I also know this isn't true for everyone... or even most people, and I have seen what these events do to them. I have seen Mothers turn cold and angry words on their children. Fathers beat their sons. Children kill themselves because they don't believe they have anything to live for.

More than anything else in my life, I want these things to stop.

I want the needless pain to end.

I want there to be love.

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