I'm supposed to be doing some writing on how I coped with the abuse from my childhood both when it was happening and today.
I'm honestly terrified.
I've done really well at shoving all of that down inside so deep that I never have to think about it. The good, the bad, and the ugly.
The assignment wants me to focus on how I did well with my coping skills. Recognize that I was in an impossible situation and that I did the best that I could. To treat myself with of love.
How do I do that? I don't love myself!
And how do I drag up any part of my past without bringing all of it with that part? Without going crazy?
The assignment says to write continuously for half an hour and then put it down. I'm not to beat up on myself or to treat myself badly. I'm to respect what I did to survive, because I am a survivor. I'm going to do my best.