If I ever had any questions about whether the rape had any effect on me or not, I don't now. Some little kid (MAYBE 10 years old) wandered into the apartment tonight and turned around and ran out when he saw me. Now I'm panicking about having some strange guy wander into the apartment and me being helpless to do anything about it. I haven't slept in days because I've been so worked up about the move, now I have no doubt that I'm not going to sleep because of this.
I'm tired of being scared all of the time...I need this all to stop.