I'm in a place where I know that I'm doing it wrong, know what I should be doing, and can't bring myself to do it because I don't want to fuck things up MORE. I just want someone else to step in and straighten it all out so I can go back to living my life the way it was before I made these terrible mistakes.
It seems like it is far more work to just get my basic needs met than it is to keep doing the work that I've been doing for years now. I'm exhausted in my heart, mind, body and soul.
I'm just not ready for the things in life that everyone else takes for granted. I need to step back and get my own life fixed before I try to live it in the real world.