I get the feeling that I should be writing about the things that I've been thinking and feeling of late, but I don't really have much to say about them.
My counselor and I have been doing our EMDR work. That is nothing short of terrifying for me, but I believe it is and will continue to help.
I'm loosing my connection to a friend (if you could say we had one in the first place), but since it seems to be what they want I'm not sure how to feel about it. I'm kind of disconnected from the whole thing really. I just have too many other things I'm trying to work out.
I'm eating, but as my weight has gone up its getting harder and harder to just do it.
I'm still missing that human connection that I wrote about last time. Part of me wishes that I was a little less picky about my bed partners.
My financial situation is out of control. Having lost Medicaid and FS means that I'm going to have to pay for these things myself when I didn't have the money to do it before. I'm thinking I'm going to have to do something drastic (and not really good for me) to fix all of this, but what and how?
I'm soul weary, these things aren't helping.