I'm having a hard time relating to a person in my life. I believe that I could care a great deal about them, but they don't seem to want that from me. In fact, they don't seem to want anything from me. I'm feeling hurt, scared and rejected. I'm not completely sure why. I think its because I had different expectations of what was going on here than what seems to be.
I'm also feeling very tired. Forcing myself to eat all day every day is really taking its toll on me. Even with the improvements I'm seeing in my life I'm still finding it very hard to keep up with it rather than just giving in to my ED. The emotional drain is overwhelming sometimes and I don't believe that I can go to anyone looking for help...they all have their own troubles and don't need to deal with mine too.