So I reached out again, and again found myself alone. I don't know why I keep feeling hurt by this, but I do. No one wants to have someone around who is going to be a "down-er", and at this point it seems that's all I have to offer people. Maybe its all I have ever had to offer. If that wasn't bad enough, I'm in a place where I'm completely selfish and self absorbed. Not great "sure, come on over" material.
Now I'm just whining.
It was a beautiful day today. Kaiya and I got to take a walk in the sun and as usual that helped me feel better. I even managed to eat today, even though I wasn't required to (I think I even ate everything I should have :-D ).
I need to get out of this rut...might be time for a trip.