Monday, February 2, 2009


I had a date last night with a guy I've gone out with a couple times before. He's a sweet guy and I like him a great deal as a person. I've figured that even if nothing came of the dating at least I would have a new really good friend. The best part is he knows and is friends with one of my best friends in the world. Some how that makes dating him seem that much easier.

Last night he brought his housemate with him. We had an amazing time. She is great. Funny and interesting, someone that I can see myself spending a lot of time getting to know. Someone I can see myself caring about a lot.

As the night went on and we started to settle down I found myself wanting to cuddle up with one or the other of them or sometimes both over the course of the night. I just couldn't get the idea out of my head. It seemed like the most natural and easy thing to do. Of course I didn't, but some how I don't think either of them would have objected.

I also got the feeling that their relationship was more than just housemates. Nothing was said or done to give me that idea, but I felt it anyway. I felt such a longing to be a part of that with them.

At the end of the night when I was getting ready to leave, we kissed good night. He wrapped his hands into my hair and ever so gently tugged on it as he kissed me. He kissed and nibbled at my neck. I had so hoped he had marked me, but he didn't. I had trouble walking out as it was so maybe its better that way.

I'm still drunk on the sights, smells, tastes, and feelings from last night and I don't really know why. It scares me a little that after such a short time someone could have this kind of effect, but then even if it took years it would still scare me.

I hope I have the patients to give myself time to get use to it.

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